My daughter means the absolute world to me. Her name is Ella. She is about the smartest and most articulated five year old in the universe. This morning we had a fallen out that has made me doubt myself as a single parent. Am I doing the best I absolutely can? I have to have confidence in being a parent and being a mother to her. Sometimes I sit up at night and just look at her and thank God for letting me have her. My goal in life is to make sure I am the best mother to her always. This morning I reevaluated myself. I have to be stern with her and I have to be "mean" to her sometimes. I have to teach her to respect me as her mother. She has to learn that she can not question everything I tell her to do. She just simply has to do it because I am her mother. I have always been the type to ask what she wants to do today or what she wants for dinner or does she want a bath or a shower, which book does she want to read. I have realized today that it may be time for me to stop making her life so hard by making her decide all these things. It's not that I don't want to give her everything she has ever wanted, because I certainly do. In that though, I believe that she just wants to be a child. Not make decisions on whats for dinner or what book to read. Simply for me to put dinner in front of her and hand her a book to read. Sounds a lot more simple right? We shall try this and see how it goes. I am no longer going to ask her opinion on anything. I am on the road to parenting the best way I know how. As I prepare her for the life ahead I have to be the one prepared for what is to come for myself as well.
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